Mornin'I haven't been around on any lists, boards and or pages in a long time. Real life came and bit me in the butt so to speak. LOL I stopped making anytime for myself to take care of real life and I realized that giving up on what I enjoyed totally was a mistake. I have been a Pernell Fan since I was 13 yrs old...2 yrs away from 50 now and I am still a huge fan and still in shock over his death. I have spent the last 2 weeks reflecting on my with being the outgoing fan and then the last 4 or 5 yrs just being a fan. I miss the old me! I miss the fact that I lost those years of all of the conversations I had with other fans and friends. It took his passing for me to realize there is time for this and real life. I have spent a lot of time with my walkman in my ears and him singin to me. Man oh Man what a voice!
When I was in High School my dad had a massive heart attack and being and only child I had no one to help me through the possible loss I might soon face (thank god I didn't loose dad then) and it was Pernells voice that calmed my tears at night when I placed my old tape recorder under my pillow. He helped me in ways that he never knew. I sent a couple of letters to him telling him this but I do not know if he ever received them and or even read them. He's gone now and I will never know.
I am in the biggest fight of my life right now trying to gain total custody of my two beautiful granddaughters and I decided that in order to get through all of this I have to have time for myself! I am hoping to reaquiant (sp) myself with friends from years ago and some new friends.
I am sorry if this sounds like a crazy introduction but if I can't talk to Bonanaza and Pernell fans just really who can I talk to?
Thanks for having me!
Hugs to you all and RIP Pernell you were one in a million!
Kim
Kim. 
to Bonanza Boomers. I think you'll find a lot of members here who totally understand your feelings. have fun, look around. I just activated your gallery account, so all you have to do is click the tab up top and log in once. 
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Kim. 
(group hug) to include you and your granddaughters. (Personally, I think anyone could use a Hoss hug, even if he's not their #1 man 'cause Hoss gives really good hugs. So ... here's a Hoss hug 
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and Welcome to Boomers Kim. I hope that you feel you have found a home here. We are a friendly bunch and love talking about Bonanza and our guys. 
